My bf looks like the monkey! : D

Today,
I took my trance-inducing medicine and was momentarily detached from my surroundings.
That was fun.

Found this on the DnD site... hahaha that was fun!

That's Janice taking my partner/buddy and I.

The best thing about all the crazy trainings is the people... they are such dolls!

Coffee... check.
Japanese food... check.
Not bad a day today, except my flu was back in full force and I had to go back to hall to get my meds to hold down the bugs for a bit.

I also bought two shirts.
That was awesome! Retail therapy never fails.


Gonna cut my fringe in two weeks when training ends... can't wait!

Now I really need some good sleep. Toodles!

Maybe tomorrow I'll have some semblance of a normal life back.
Coffee, books, sushi... I don't even mind being alone.
I can't feel like myself in school. So many expectations to fulfill. So many people to let into my life. So many people to guard against.
Training is really draining me. Instead of slogging it out in front of the mirror for 4 hours every night I really wish I could be just hanging out with people who accept me for who I am... instead of people who need me to walk a certain way. To have a broad smile on my face constantly. To look like a sexpot.
I know I shouldn't be complaining. In just a snap, all these would be over and I'll be back to square one. I'm just afraid that all the twisting and shaping me in another mould would make me lose myself. I don't want to be somebody else.

It's all so hard and it's all so easy.
I'm just really tired and in need of a shoulder to lean on.

2.35 am

I wish I was a body lotion.
or a lipbalm.

Tonight is the 2nd night I've had supper at McDonald's. I'm gonna put on the pounds!

It's currently 4.44am and I have a lecture at 1030am. In less than 6 hours' time.
However, my roommate has company in the room and I am quite shy about falling asleep with two conscious individuals around. One of whom is depressed.
I feel bad for being generally unresponsive... but I am cold that way and I cannot lie.

My roommie is sick and there's no airconditioning tonight.

FML!

So.
My babe's back and he got me a nice little apple-shaped jar of perfume from the DFS. Damn awesome. At this rate, I'm never going to need to buy anything...
I also went to the doctor's today. The trip reminded me of why I didn't want to go in the first place... but we spent the waiting time playing multiplayer taptap on my itouch and that was fun.
I'm looking forward to the weekends again.

Nights spent alone like this makes me feel so empty.
I suppose I've gotten too used to being dependent. I crave company. I crave warmth.
It's not right. I feel guilty. Guilty and dysfunctional. Like an immature juvenile.
Maybe I need sleep.

With some luck I might get me some sushi and coffee tomorrow. A lot of luck, maybe...

Today I was supposed to meet my best friend.

BUT
1. I overslept.
2. I woke up feeling like shit.
3. I found that I was locked inside the house. (3rd consecutive week of being locked in/out because I forgot to bring my keys home)

SO.
my dear best friend found her way to my house (without a phone),
bought me dinner, and chatted with me over the gate. That was... cathartic.

I need my old life back.

Seven hours of photoshoot. Tranny makeup. Insane midnight supper in geylang. Overnight majong. Second hand cigar smoke. I can't take this...

Hi
What is up?
Here's blogging from lecture theatre 29.. the most elusive of theatres.
Today is a fairly lucky day. I managed to score two electives in the Morning. Made it for lecture ( albeit being ten min late- better late than never, non?) No fever this morning. Hope the temperature lays off for a bit... There is no time to be sick!!

The lecturer had just kindly bestowed a five mins break upon us.

I should go. All the wifi usage is draining the life out of my bitch (the itouch). Toodles!

Today,

• my roommate bought me a peach/apple and a HUGE bottle of green tea
• my og played shoot, shag and marry and got called out by the security guard for making a ruckus
• I got very disturbed by the guys' way of thinking

Can't string sentences together coherently because it's 4.25am and I have a lecture in 6 hours' time. Good day nonetheless :)

Somewhere near my hall's stocked up on my favourite cookies.
No price for guessing where my allowance will be going into this month...

Within these few days, I've:
1. Sleep walked and scared the shit out of my roommate
2. Got drunk enough to dance my ass off the night before and not remember a single shit abt what happened the morning after
3. Heard the worst rumour I've ever had abt myself making its way around.
4. Missed my first ever lecture

This life is completely insane.

Haven't been this happy in a very, very long while........

You want thingamabob? I've got twenty.
But who cares? No big deal.
I want more....

good day : )
Havaianas found, cellphone recovered.
a tiny gathering with my favourite people.
Life is good.

(How do I get better
Once I've had the best?)



Every single step I take feels like a positive step in the right direction
but somehow it makes me falter and hesitate
even more than if I knew I was going the wrong way

Four days more till hall camp
Nine days more till school begins
Twenty one days more till dy is back from the land of xxl chicken.

Why do I feel so lonely?

I've got a new friend! :)
It's called "bitch", courtesy of the oh-so-creative-and-humorous-DY, kindly sponsored by my sister. I believe she's the most generous person I have, and will ever meet.

Matriculation was a joke, by the way.
I still have zero idea what is going on,
which is funny because I am looking forward to university life. I think.

Gonna continue syncing my bitch. It's fun ripping all the High School Musical songs inside and thinking of how Dy's face would twist into a look of disgust upon hearing them, haha!

Till then!